April 16 16 / day 106
New Studio Space16 April, 2016
It’s already April, I was going to spout some crap about “New Year, new studio” but it’s a bit late for that. The new space is (if at all possible) smaller than my old studio, but in every other way its sheer luxury. Central heating, natural light, proper doors… I’m laughing to myself as I type this. So what has kept me away? Excuses, laziness and self doubt.
My tardiness has yet again caught up with me and I’m left feeling incompetent, clumsy and awkward with a brush, swearing under my breath as I cock something up because I didn’t clean off the brush properly before delving into a lighter colour and end up with a dirty grey mess on the canvas.
I’ve been making a concerted effort to, if nothing else, draw daily and that is now starting to pay off. I’m still having more failures than successes on the canvases, but I’m determined not to give in and to take my time. I don’t know if the failures are due to my apparent self-doubt and subsequent changes in direction as I try to find my groove again, or something else… honestly, I don’t care, the time for being a self indulgent angsty wanker have gone.